"What you are doing is not working," one lady wrote to me.

"Let me tell you my story" she continued:

"I had chemotherapy until November. After that, things went uphill. And later even better. My thick arm swells more and more, I become much fitter, can work normally, my period is back, my chronic sinusitis is virtually no longer noticeable, my depression is gone, I live in a harmonious environment. I also feel that the nodes are receding. So I went to the CT full of motivation and was looking forward to seeing the doctor's face when he saw the excellent results. Then in the evening the shock. Zero improvement, a liver metastasis grew from 3 centimeters to 6 centimeters. No improvement in the other metastases. In a period of 3 months despite medication. So much for healing myself. Others are in a bad way and still they get better... ".

My answer:

Here we are confronted with several factors:
1. the orthodox medicine as a rigid (or shall we say stubborn?) representative of a mechanistic world view sees and treats the body as a machine that has a fault. The cause of the error is of no interest, and the assumption that it may not be an error at all, but only a (logical) effect of certain decisions and habits, certainly not.

2. about whether the "emotional barometer" can be an indicator of being on a good, healing path.
Dr. David Hawkins has founded a healing method from the care of "positive emotions". According to the motto: "Feel healthy". His whole teaching revolves around ways to put that into practice. From my experience as a self-healing mentor, I can say Hawkins is 100% right.

3. the relationship between emotions and physical (healing) processes. And, in this context, about the length of time it takes for the corresponding emotions to actually have an effect. 
Here is a simple example: Someone starts a job as a body painter. He is in daily contact with highly toxic substances and breathes them in. Does this person get sick within days? No. It usually takes years before the body reports: This is not good for me. And it is the same with a healing process.

It's like a tanker: changing direction simply takes time. But it would be absurd to say that I do not change the rudder from the outset.

And finally: What is the alternative? Positive emotions had not brought improvement for the time being. Is healing more likely if I now sink into negativity?

Thousands of influencing factors determine our career.

It is important to analyze this sentence carefully. The influencing factors are NOW.

These determine what I BECOME.

So there is a "In between".

This in-between is the time between rudder impact and turned ship.

The time between planted seeds and the harvest.

The time between deciding to feel good and having a healthy body.

If the ship does not turn, the plant does not sprout, health fails, then somewhere there is a circumstance that prevents this.

Someone or something in me is counteracting.

Someone or something inside me is trampling my offspring.

Someone or something in me does not believe in healing or believes an external authority who describes the situation as hopeless, the often brutal treatments as without alternative.

I maintain that someone who is without hope cannot get well, or even stay well.

What about the opposite case? A person who makes a real effort to replace bad habits with health-promoting ones?

Well, as mentioned at the beginning, there are a myriad of influencing factors for health. And so, of course, it's also possible that I've already set my ship on the reef. That my bottom has become so hard that no sprout can get through it.

How do I behave then? Can I then give up, become negative, let myself go, become bitter or even angry?

Not only have I lived in a Buddhist country for many years, but I also find Buddhist philosophy very helpful. This assumes a continuum of consciousness. An immortal soul, if you will. And, although this soul incarnates again and again, it also evolves over these incarnations. The learning experiences made determine, so to speak, the quality that the consciousness has.

And if I see myself as eternal consciousness, I can also then - or perhaps even especially then - develop when I realize that I will soon leave this body.

When I realize that most of my goals and priorities were completely inconsequential, and in the end, the only moments that count are those in which I was filled with compassion, peace and warmth.

This realization alone is worth a lot and it will be a valuable support for me in further incarnations.

But: In the vast majority of cases, it is still possible to bring about physical healing.

And I should support and promote this possibility through active action. This activity should take place on the mental, the physical and the spiritual level. (I have described details about this elsewhere).

So once again back to this Transitional phase, from the old to the new, from the undesirable to the hoped-for state.:

I like to compare this phase to a swimmer who notices he is being pulled out by an ocean current. Most people get into the following fatal chain of reactions in this situation:

• Fear (the current is noticed)
• Resistance (one swims vehemently against it)
• Panic (you can see the current is stronger)
• Exhaustion (Despair and complete exhaustion within a very short time ensure the collapse of mental and physical energy).

An experienced surfer will not be drawn into such a chain of reactions.

He is clear about how to use his powers wisely.

He can "read" the current and knows where to "get off".

He never paddles directly against the current, but always at a certain angle against it - and at the right moment.

He does not go into fear, but remains master of the situation in that phase - even and especially while it pulls him out.

He knows, his overview, his decisive action, the balance of "with the things flow" and decisive action is the key to not only surviving, but even enjoying the process.

But he also knows that he is in truth a part of the ocean and will one day be absorbed into it again.

Every surfer wants to die in the water. Wants to pass into the sea himself, as it were, as the one who plays with the sea.

I think that's a beautiful image that you can also apply very well to a healing process.

Going into this process playfully - knowing that one day we will all transition from player to game.

But that we play the game according to our abilities.

Not just letting ourselves drift.

And so self-healing work ultimately becomes a process that is enjoyable, that takes on something playful.

In the foreground of which is not survival, but the activity itself.

One last time back to the transitional phase between rudder impact and turned ship, between planted seed and harvest:

A helmsman who has set the rudder to the right knows that the ship will turn accordingly, taking into account certain physical laws.

The farmer who has planted a certain seed knows that after a few months of conscientious care of the sprouts will be able to harvest exactly this type of plant.

Neither the helmsman nor the farmer fear that their actions will be fruitless. They know that the laws of life support this action.

They are aware that, yes, there can be severe storms, floods, droughts and other crises, but they would never think of abandoning active measures right from the start because of these dangers, or of fundamentally doubting their effect.

But this is exactly what many people do who are anxious to bring about a healing process. They remain passive, waiting for the lifeguard.

And the most deplorable thing: they don't even notice how beautiful it is out there, even in the current....